I have been looking externally for a vision on what I should do at work. I have been waiting for something to just take away the responsibility and just tell me what I should do. I spoke with my manager today about how I don’t have a clear vision of my career path. He told me that instead of waiting or depending on others for a vision, I should create one for my department and grow it from the inside out. I had never really looked at it that way. I have been looking externally for direction, when the only place that I can really look is internally.
Some things seem obvious when you say them or put them on paper. I then beat myself up over not realizing it sooner, but the thing is that it is all part of the process. I am exactly where I need to be and I need to let that sink in. I need to let it fill my whole body. No matter my perceived mistakes or successes, I am where I am and that is the only place that I can be at this moment.
So I changed the name of the blog. The old addresses still work. You can still even go to bullzen.wordpress.com, it will just redirect to middlepane.com. I had a thought in mind for the name middle pane, but I just don’t feel that thought any more. So, I am just some guy, you know. Until I am something else, I suppose.