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Memory

Why is it that we can remember some things some of the time, but not all things all of the time?  Why is memory selective to the situation and the frame of mind?  Why does doing certain things trigger certain memories?  Why are those memories chosen over others?

Sometimes the memories bring pleasure, and we cherish those over the ones that bring us pain.  Still, we remember the ones that bring us pain.

One memory…  one moment… triggering the next one.

What was the first one?  And how could there ever be a first one?

An empty state

A state of emptiness

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Never Stop Improving

English: Lowe's Home Improvement Center #487 w...
(Photo credit: Wikipedia)

Today I went to Lowe’s with my wife to look for a new oven.   At one point I am looking at the ovens and she is just looking at me.  I ask her why she is doing this, and she replies that she is waiting for me to make a decision since it is my decision.  I have seen myself be over-controlling before, but this time I have caught myself in the act.  I make an effort to get her give her input on what she wants, so that it will not be my choice.  I have to push her a bit.  I think her reluctance is reflex reaction from her normally giving in to what I want.

An associate comes over and asks us if we need help.  I tell him that we are trying to figure out what we want and he asks “What is it you really need?”  And isn’t this the biggest thing that there is?  We must let go of our wants and expectations and find out what it is that we really need.

The main concern for starting to pick out the oven is simply the type of oven to get (built-in, standalone, slide-in).  As part of getting a oven, we want to redo the counter-tops as well, so we are pretty open on the type.  The associate suggested that we look at the counter-tops first.  He said that there are a number of things that we can do and we should just “have fun with it.

In counter-tops, my wife was a little more open to giving her opinion.  She knew that we didn’t want to go too expense, so she stayed around a good price point and picked out a few that she liked.  In looking through some of the displays the kitchen associate indicated that we need to think about a back-splash as well.  She was very upfront on things that we can do to save money.  Of course by us saving money on labor,which Lowe’s contracts out, we have more money to spend on materials and put into Lowe’s pockets.  Oh well, I am OK with that.  🙂

We then made our way over to tile and picked out a few options that we like for the wall and backsplash.  I asked the associate there what I need to do to prep the wall for the tile.  He said that I can just use the tile glue and it should be fine.  He also told me “don’t make it any harder than it is.”  I guess it was this last one that really stuck out to me.  Different little signs or suggestions on how I can make this experience better.  Things that I need to focus on or let go of.  And to think that it started with me letting go of control on picking out the oven.

 

ZEN CAN BE FOUND IN ANY ACTIVITY

English: Dog Poop Bin, Western Lawns The sea f...

What is Enlightenment?

My mentor, turning and pointing slightly inward beyond the edge of the park lawn behind us, replied, “Dog poop turns white in the sun.”

Sure enough it seemed a dog had left his calling card on the grass, but, having enough of the Zen answers I asked, “How can I be Enlightened?”

He said, “The grass grows in a circle much taller and darker green than the surrounding grass.”

http://www.angelfire.com/electronic/awakening101/yun-men.html

Very simply, Buddha is dried dung because Buddha is everything.

Dear Seeker

Glad you made it here.  I have been waiting.  Take a peek through the blog.  It can go pretty far if you follow the tracks.   Come join me on this path that never ends.

Made-up Past

View from the Massanutten Lodge Area of Skyland
View from the Massanutten Lodge Area of Skyland (Photo credit: dherman1145)

You are influenced by the past, but in reality there is no past.  The past is something that you made up that just simply jives with whatever you can accept as your reality.  It contains your fears that you will relive until you overcome them.  But it also contains your hopes and your joys.  The suffering that you may have encountered has taught you a lesson.  All of this combines to make you who you are today.  Every choice made you the person reading these words.  You are alive.  That is pretty fucking amazing.  How can any of that be wrong?

Thought = Action?

Reality
Reality (Photo credit: nualabugeye)

And what is reality? Is reality what we’re seeing with our brain…  or is reality what we’re seeing with our eyes?  And the truth is is that the brain does not know the difference… between what it sees in its environment and what it remembers… because the same specific neural nets are then firing.

What the (bleep) Do We Know? 

If this is true with vision, then it must be true with the other senses as well.  And if that is true with what we see, hear, smell, taste, and touch; then what about our actions within that framework?  Is there a difference in thinking about an action and performing an action?  If actions are in response to environment and the environment is thought, then actions must be thought as well.  I don’t know if it is a fallacy to apply logic here or not.

There is something to this, but I cannot quite wrap my brain around the full scope of it yet.  Any comments are appreciated.

Life of Pi ***SPOLIERS***

Cover of "Life of Pi"
Cover of Life of Pi

*** LIFE OF PI SPOILER ALERT ***

We saw Life of Pi last night, and I wanted to write some quick thoughts about it.  Most are around the end, so I want to make sure that I don’t give anything away to someone that might want to see it.  I don’t have that large of a readership, so I am not that concerned.  But if you do read this blog, and you want to see this movie, then skip this post.

The movie revolves around a middle aged man, Pi, talking to a writer and telling of his life growing up and exploring multiple religions.  He lives with his family in a zoo in India that is run by his father and mother.  Early on he is curious about his path and is open to many things.  Hinduism is his start and it is mentioned that there are over 33 million gods in Hinduism so he was bound to identify with a few of them.  He sits in bed reading graphic novels on Hindu gods and goddesses.  For him, the gods are super heroes.  [That is an interesting analogy and one that we fall short of seeing today.  We see our myths as mere myths and nothing to identify with.  It is easier to do so as a child, but growing up we seem to get more set in our ways.]  He even explored Christianity and thanked Vishnu for bringing him to Christ.

The meat of the story is him being in a ship wreck and jumping onto the life raft at the last second.  A zebra, hyena, orangutan  and tiger also make it on the raft.  The hyena attacks the zebra and kills it.  It then turns to the orangutan and the orangutan smacks it unconscious.  The hyena awakens and pounces on the orangutan and kills it as well.  The tiger jumps from under the tarp covering the boat and devours the hyena.

Pi knows that the tiger will kill him, so he makes a small raft attached to the rescue boat.  He floats on that catching fish for the tiger.  He keeps his distance, and at one point he has the ability to let the tiger drown.  However, he cannot bring himself to do this and saves it.  After a while he attempts to train the tiger.  He may not be able to tame it, but he should be able to train it.  He comes up with a plan on how he is going to do it, and after practicing many times he goes for the implementation and fails.  He is discouraged, but gains his courage again and stands up to the tiger with a sharp stick.  The tiger eventually submits, and while still something to be feared, he and the boy form a relationship.  They both land on an island that provides them nourishment by day, but the pools of fresh water turn to acid by night and the island eats fish, meerkats, and whatever falls in the water.  Pi knows that he cannot stay here.  He gathers supplies and the tiger, and they both push off for their goal.

Near exhaustion, Pi reaches a sandy shore in Mexico.  He pulls the boat onto the beach and collapses feeling the sand as the “warm cheek of god”.  The tiger heads to the edge of the jungle and Pi expects him to look back.  He wants some form of closure, but the tiger just pauses and then moves on.

In the “present”, adult Pi tells the writer he is talking to that the shipping company performed an inquiry and he told them the story of the tiger and the raft.  They do not believe him.  They want the truth.  He then tells them the story of the life boat with the cook killing the sailor with the broken leg, his mother slapping the cook, the cook killing his mother, and then Pi killing the cook.  The zebra was the sailor, the cook was the hyena, his mother was the orangutan , and he was the tiger.  [Realization.  Light.]  He asks the writer “In both stories my family dies and I am the only survivor.  Neither story has anything to do with the cause of the sinking of the ship.  Which one do you prefer?”  The writer replies “The one with the animals”.  Pi then says “And so it is with god”.

My thoughts on the story evolved once the realization was in place.  The tiger was really a metaphor for Pi’s sense of self.  It seems ripped from the drawings of the 10 Bulls.  From his search, to the taming of the tiger, to riding it home, to not needing the tiger any more, to being out in the world.  The parallel seems so sharp to me, but that could be because I have been focusing on the 10 Bulls lately.

  1. The Search – Pi is fascinated by many religions.   He explores all and sees no conflict in them.
  2. Seeing the footprints – This is a difficult one to pin to a specific event in the movie.  Pi sees evidence of something more.  There is also the event of the tiger killing the goat which changes him.  Aboard the ship, Pi sees the beauty of the storm and yells at God to bring more rain.
  3. Perceiving the Bull – Pi kills the cook and sees his true nature.  He is surprised and frightened by his actions.
  4. Catching the Bull – Pi fashions a life raft to keep him safe from the tiger.  He has no choice but to do this to keep himself alive.  He keeps the tiger at bay, and he cannot escape from it and it cannot escape from him.  He has the opportunity to let the tiger drown, but he realizes that he cannot kill the tiger.  He feels compassion.
  5. Taming the Bull – Pi trains the tiger and becomes disciplined in his actions.  It is still a ferocious beast and they are not completely one in action.  His self is still separate.
  6. Riding the Bull Home – Pi and the tiger arrive on an island and Pi knows he cannot leave the tiger there.  The tiger knows that this is not home.  Pi gathers supplies and he and the tiger leave.  He sees him as being separate from the tiger, but they are one in action.
  7. Bull Transcended – Pi and the tiger arrive at the beach.  The tiger goes to the edge of the jungle, hesitates, and moves on.  Pi did this all himself.  He survived the 266 days at sea by himself.  He did not need the tiger.  The tiger was something that he made up to keep going.  Is the self the same way?

The last few are not really depicted in the movie, although I could be missing them.  I could also be making this connection to the 10 bulls incorrectly.

  1. Bull and Self Transcended – There is no tiger, there is no self, there is no mind.
  2. Reaching the Source – There was no need to search, just find.  Everything is and always was here.
  3. In the World – Out in the world, everyone is enlightened.

The final comment “And so it is with god” implies that all things are the same whether God is there or not.  We are placed on this earth and our placement here has no effect on what has come before us.  Our journey can be a magical one or it can be one of survival.  Why not choose the story that you prefer.  Choose the story that makes you happy.

  • Taming the Wild Ox – Provides detailed analysis from multiple sources on each bull/ox
  • Oxherderzen – Great interpretation and analysis of the 10 Oxherding Pictures
  • Bullzen 10 Bulls – My analysis of the 10 bulls (in progress)

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Your Own Best Friend

Imagine how life would be if your best friend lived your life for you. You would still be you, sitting on a cloud, enjoying a magnificent view. Your best friend would be down on Earth living life. You, on your cloud, would become your best friend’s guru. You would have a direct link to your friend’s mind and you could give advice as you read their thoughts.

From your cloud, what would you tell your friend when they worry about how they look? What would you tell your friend when they feel like they can’t handle a situation? From your cloud, you would fill your friend with confidence and help them to develop amazing habits. You could console them through heartbreak and guide them on amazing adventures.

This is the power that you have over yourself. The only thing that gets in the way is your self. How could you have such confidence in your friend, but doubts about yourself? You just need to find your cloud and become your own best friend.

Zen Mister

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Feet – Santa – Salesmen – Keep One – Ask – Meta Memory – Superheros

I don’t really see my feet when I am walking.  I wonder if they are really there or if they are there only when I am looking at them.  It is the thought of the feet that propels me forward, not the feet themselves.  My idea of how a foot behaves in conjunction with the rest of my body that I cannot see.  Obviously, if you start with feet, then you have to move on to everything else.  Good luck.


My wife’s mom wants to take our kids to see “Rise of the Guardians” this weekend and we took a look at the trailer to see what it is about.  It looks to give a backstory to some of the mythical creatures that a lot of us believed in while growing up and then follows them on a quest to defeat the boogeyman.  It looks pretty cool and I am a little jealous that the in-laws are taking them, but they may want to see it again.  It got me thinking about what it was like to actually believe in something that seems really absurd now that we are adults.  The wonder that they feel and they see the proof that the belief exists because they get presents, or their tooth is not there the next morning.  What it must be like to have that wonder. And of course that got me drawing parallels to religions.  We see signs of something.  Something that makes us believe or things that make us not believe.  It can be blind faith, scientific fact, or years of research; but there is still that feeling that justifies our understanding of the universe.

But what if those feelings or signs are just like the presents on Christmas.  They are real to us and we have reasoned an explanation in our mind based on things that we have been told.   What if there is some force putting signs out for us?  Different signs for different people.  But at one time or another we see or feel those signs, whatever we need that proof or disproof to be.  What is the force putting those signs out there?  The only answer that rings true is the cosmos, and just like parents help give us beliefs to help experience the world, the cosmos is doing the same for us.  It is giving us what we need to experience the universe.  We are children of the cosmos.  We are the same as the cosmos itself.


It amazes me how salesmen have the ability to use words to get you to do or think what they want you to do or think.  They play to what they think you want to hear to allow you to trust them.  And they don’t have to be selling a physical product.  They don’t even have to be selling for a company.  They can just be selling themselves.


Keep at least one for yourself


If you want to know what someone thinks about you, ask.   If someone asks you, tell them.


Our memory seems to be a pointer to just a piece of the full memory.  It is minimal information that we use as a reference point.  Maybe it is just at first a feeling that we then think of a situation that reminds us of that feeling.  It stands as a marker and we expand upon that.  We make it bigger until it spawns out and suits our view of the world and ourselves.  It seems key to let go of that.  The need to identify with the feeling.


My kids are superheros.

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