Middle Pane

absurdism, philosophy, science, music



Work with the World

I spend a lot of my time thinking about how I could change things if only the world were different.  If there were different conditions or if people behaved different than they do now.  The powers running countries and religions and whatever should do this so that I can do that.

But it doesn’t work like that does it?  Trying to change an external force or blaming it for our lack of action is just ridiculous.  Change comes within us first.  Instead of opposing the external forces, we can learn to work with them.  Yin and yang.  The external does not have to change for the internal to change.  Internal change produces external change, and yet both exist as they are.

Continue reading “Work with the World”


All it Takes is a Little Patience and Time and Acceptance

My thoughts and anger seem to be consuming me this morning.  People not reacting how I think they should.  Feelings of inadequacy and worry.  I try to think positive.  I try to turn negative thoughts into positive ones.  I try to convert my feelings of I don’t want to feel this way into I want to feel this way.  Thoughts make feelings.  Scattered thoughts = scattered feelings.  I need to stabilize.  I need to make my thoughts even, in all situations turn “I don’t want” into “I want”.

It wouldn’t be so bad if I didn’t feel like I was being punched in the throat every minute of the day.  I want to feel confident.  I want to get what I want.  I want to be myself.  I want to be knowledgeable, accepting, accepted.  I can continue to list my wants forever.  But them being wants still puts me in a position of wanting or lacking.  It is always a thought of not having or never having enough.

So what then?  How do I gain what I want without wanting it?  Pretend that I already have it?  If I put myself in a position of turning my wants into my haves then does the universe truly respond and give it to me?  What is required for this? Patience.  Acceptance.  There is a time delay.

Thoughts manifest themselves into physical reality on a timeframe.  Ask an artist.  A painting does not appear at a thought.  It takes effort and time to turn a mental thought into a physical representation.  Piece by piece, if I allow it, I can see and be the transformation.  The only limitation is my own thought and my own level of acceptance.  An artist lost in his work adjusts his thoughts to reality and reality to his thoughts bridging the gap until there is no distinction.  to an artist lost in his work, no time appears to have passed.

Continue reading “All it Takes is a Little Patience and Time and Acceptance”


A heart being used as a symbol of love. Photo ...

A lot of times I expect people to respond a certain way to something that I have told them.  I feel a little unnerved when they respond in a completely different manner.  I am expecting interest and questions and I get a shake of the head.  I am expecting them to understand something that they could never completely understand because their perspective is different than mine.  They do not have all of the information that I have.  Either through neglect of me telling them, their previous life experiences, or even just their memory or perception of events.  Everything is completely different than mine.  How can I possibly expect their reaction to be the same as mine?

Yet, we are all here sharing this one experience.  We are separate at a physical level, but we are united at a spiritual level.  How can those levels reside in complete ignorance of each other?  Or maybe there is information shared, but it is given in small doses so that we do not notice it.  A gradual change and merging.  It all starts from within.

You can’t expect to end the world of suffering at a wish.  It starts with you.  Give yourself the loving-kindness that you deserve.  Really feel it in your heart and let it expand out to your whole body.  To your family.  To friends.  To people you might possibly hate or hold a grudge towards.  To people you meet in passing.  To people you don’t know.  To the whole world.  To the whole of existence that you cannot even possibly begin to imagine.

Slowly and gradually we begin to become one with everyone that we meet.  We treat them with the respect that we want ourselves.  We empathize with their situation since we can relate to it.  They are not suffering… we are.  The sooner we let go of that desire to see them in a different situation, the sooner that we will ourselves be free from suffering.  They only suffer because we think they suffer.  We only suffer because we project our suffering on other people.  It can end.

Finding vs. Looking

Expectations, outcome, and disappointmentWhat is the difference in finding and looking?  The two words sound so much the same.  When we look, we are looking so that we can find something.   We look for our car keys.  We find our car keys.  Yeah, that sounds pretty close.  The question is, can we find our car keys without looking?

How many times have your torn through your house looking for your keys?  You look everywhere that you have been.  You look in the normal spots.  You look in the abnormal spots.  They are gone.  You close your eyes and take a breath.  You find them.  They were here all along.  You did not need to look for them for them to be here.

When we actively look for something we set up expectations in our mind for what we will find or where we will find it.  Those expectations limit and can set us up for disappointment if they are not fully met. Let go of expectations of finding and just find.

We suffer because we want things to last forever or, even worse, we EXPECT things to last forever. But, impermanence isn’t a bad thing in itself. That is just a value that we apply to it. Without impermanence, life is not possible. How can we transform our suffering if things are not impermanent? How can the situation in the world improve? We need impermanence for hope.

– Daniel Boepyol Scharpenburg  – unleashyourbuddhanature


''Fish Karma logo

Typically when I hear the word karma images of a birth and death cycle come to mind.  Actions, speech and thought performed in this life have direct implications on the next one.  While this larger cycle may be true, a much tighter karmic cycle is happening constantly.  The way that we interact with the world has direct and sometimes immediate impact on us.  This may be a future debt that we know is coming due or it may be an instant feeling we get as soon as the harm is inflicted.

The tight cycle still represents the birth and death of our selves.  The birth and death of our ego.  How we treat others,  including our environment, has direct implication on what the ego thinks it is.  Action kills the ego and it is then reborn with whatever karmic debt was created in the last cycle.  It is best not to judge the ego since its life is so short.

Dear Seeker

Glad you made it here.  I have been waiting.  Take a peek through the blog.  It can go pretty far if you follow the tracks.   Come join me on this path that never ends.

English: Watching a comedic television show he...
English: Watching a comedic television show helps provoke laughter (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

I think that laughing helps me kill my self.  It helps me forget everything else and I feel complete in the world without anything lacking.  I am thrust into the moment where that is all there is.  I feel a rush to my head brought on by the extra flow of blood.  It feels like parts of my brain come alive that have been sleeping.  Like when blood rushes into a limb that has gone numb.

Made-up Past

View from the Massanutten Lodge Area of Skyland
View from the Massanutten Lodge Area of Skyland (Photo credit: dherman1145)

You are influenced by the past, but in reality there is no past.  The past is something that you made up that just simply jives with whatever you can accept as your reality.  It contains your fears that you will relive until you overcome them.  But it also contains your hopes and your joys.  The suffering that you may have encountered has taught you a lesson.  All of this combines to make you who you are today.  Every choice made you the person reading these words.  You are alive.  That is pretty fucking amazing.  How can any of that be wrong?

Thought = Action?

Reality (Photo credit: nualabugeye)

And what is reality? Is reality what we’re seeing with our brain…  or is reality what we’re seeing with our eyes?  And the truth is is that the brain does not know the difference… between what it sees in its environment and what it remembers… because the same specific neural nets are then firing.

What the (bleep) Do We Know? 

If this is true with vision, then it must be true with the other senses as well.  And if that is true with what we see, hear, smell, taste, and touch; then what about our actions within that framework?  Is there a difference in thinking about an action and performing an action?  If actions are in response to environment and the environment is thought, then actions must be thought as well.  I don’t know if it is a fallacy to apply logic here or not.

There is something to this, but I cannot quite wrap my brain around the full scope of it yet.  Any comments are appreciated.

Create a free website or blog at

Up ↑

%d bloggers like this: