Of a Quantum Mind

Everything is linked in a tight cosmic dance that depends on every particle being exactly where it is at this moment.  The wind blows and a car moves down the street at a slow pace.  I push buttons on a keyboard made in a factory thousands of miles a way.  We see light in the sky that dates back to the beginning of our conception of time.  Or maybe it is all meaningless random bits and we are all individually ego driven.

I keep coming back to quantum theory as a possible explanation of reality.  Sir Roger Penrose’s theories on the quantum mind posit that the physical world itself holds no clues to consciousness.  Is consciousness in our thoughts or is it in some quantum processing that is currently going on without our awareness?  What is something until it is observed?  Schrodinger’s cat is both alive and dead until the box is opened and the cat suddenly exists in that state.   If observation causes collapse of a wave into a definite state then what exists in non-observation?  Everything exists in a state of potential waiting to be observed.  The observation forms a matrix of information that we then process as our reality.

The reason is that quantum mechanics requires interpretation before it describes the experience of an observer. While particles and fields are described by a wavefunction, the results of observations are described by classical information which tells you the result. The information about observations is not in the wavefunction, but is additional random data. The wavefunction gives only the probability of getting different outcomes, and it turns into a classical probability only during the act of measurement, when its magnitude squared gives a probability for different outcomes

- The Quantum Mind-Body Problem

English: Professor Sir Roger Penrose (born 8 A...

I sort of equate this to a television or monitor.  Each pixel exists in a non-state until the TV is turned on and it is set to a given state.  It is told to be Red or Green or Blue to render a certain image.  All of the pixels on the screen work in unison to produce an image that makes sense to our brains.  Freeze all of the pixels in a given state and the image is paused.  As the pixels change states, we perceive motion when they exist in a state that we expect.  If the pixels are not in the right state for that image, then we may see noise or distortions.

All matter that we perceive is at its base level comprised of bits or particles that can exist in a finite set of states.  That exact set of states gives us the perception of reality.  Those particles form an image of reality.  As those particles change states, reality flows.  When that screen or matrix of particles makes sense, we see a clear image.  When there is a discrepancy between our expectations and that matrix then we see noise.  The more that we can drop our expectations of what the moment should be, the more the picture comes into focus and the noise drops away.

We can focus the image by dropping our expectations and accepting the moment.  The image may still flash and blip, but we are on our path to reducing the noise.  Every thought that you have of yourself in the past is just a thought and it is not happening now.  Likewise the future is just a projection based on how you see your current reality.  The more that you attach to a future or past form, the more rigid you make your current moment.  Release those forms and free reality.

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The Empty Boat

boat

There’s a Zen story in which a man is enjoying himself on a river at dusk. He sees another boat coming down the river toward him. At first it seems so nice to him that someone else is also enjoying the river on a nice summer evening.

Then he realizes that the boat is coming right toward him, faster and faster. He begins to yell, “Hey, hey, watch out! For Pete’s sake, turn aside!” But the boat just comes right at him, faster and faster.

By this time he’s standing up in his boat, screaming and shaking his fist, and then the boat smashes right into him. He sees that it’s an empty boat.

This is the classic story of our whole life situation. There are a lot of empty boats out there. We’re always screaming and shaking our fists at them. Instead, we could let them stop our minds.

Even if they only stop our mind for 1.1 seconds, we can rest in that little gap. When the story line starts, we can do the tonglen practice of exchanging ourselves for others.

In this way everything we meet has the potential to help us cultivate compassion and reconnect with the spacious, open quality of our minds.

From Comfortable with Uncertainty, pages 103-104

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Let go of Judgment

Judging a moment,

Past, present, or future

Causes ripples through the universe

If you must judge,

Judge positively

Let go of all past and future identities

And what is an identity, but our judgement of ourselves at any given time

Accept it or change your perspective

Either way you have to let it go

Self Realizations

English: The 14th Dalai Lama, Tenzin Gyatso in...

English: The 14th Dalai Lama, Tenzin Gyatso in Antwerpen, Belgium 2006 (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

It is easy to see my kids as projections of myself.  i don’t mean that they are not independent people, but I definitely see myself in them.  The way that they act.  The things that I hate about myself are the things that I see first in them.  They yell at each other.  They are bossy. These are all things that upon self-reflection are my own issues.  I cannot correct anything in them.  Whether internal thought or external action, they pick up on my vibe, and they cling to my example.

Their shyness is my own.  Their anger is mine.  But I cannot take just the bad right.  I cannot just see my negative qualities and how much I hate myself.  I have to see the good.  I have to see the love and caring.  I have to see the intelligence and creativity.  They are as just me as the anger.

I tried to take today and be as much of an observer of thought and action as I possibly could.  I tried to step back and let things happen without putting my old way of thinking into play.  I tried to take today to change.

I had got my wife a Kindle Fire a couple of weeks ago for an early Mother’s Day/Her Birthday/Our Anniversary present.  I realized this morning lying in bed that I couldn’t let that stand as her gift for Mother’s Day.  Last year I planted a small flower garden and I wanted to continue that tradition as much as possible.   The day before I had put a short fence around the area to keep the dogs out and I put the compost down.  So the decision this morning to do that for her wasn’t a spur of the moment one.  But yesterday we had a pretty good fight, and that made me selfishly not want to plant the garden.  The revelation this morning when I got up is that I needed to do this for her and me.  What will be remembered in a couple weeks?  The argument or the flower bed?  And my wife did appreciate it.  I can’t ignore that.  I think that she was really touched that I did that for her.

Giving your anger the instrument of words and actions is like giving a child a pile of straw and a box of matches. Once lit, anger feeds off the air of exposure and can rage out of control.  The only alternative is to control anger, and the way to do this is to thinking, What is the value of anger? What is the value of tolerance and compassion.

The 14th Dalai Lama – Tenzin Gyatso

On the ride to my mom’s for Mother’s Day, my youngest was in rare form.  He was sleeping and my wife reached back to adjust his car seat because his head kept flopping.  Well, he woke up all pissed off.  Which is a little understandable, but he just has severe anger issues.  (Which again sounds familiar to me.  We are having him evaluated for “sensory” issues tomorrow.  I am not sure what all that means, but he definitely experiences the word differently than most.  He is very particular about his pants wanting to wear only  ones that are super tight calling the others “too wiggly”.  Long aside.)  So he is yelling in the backseat wanting her to put it back up.  When she does put it back up he starts yelling for her to put it back down.  I am trying to keep calm and ignore it, but my wife is at her breaking point too.  I pull the car over and get him out of his seat.  I am trying my best to stay calm and not push any more anger into the situation.  As best as I can I have him understand that it is wrong for him to yell and scream and that is not the way to get what he wants.

Who is teaching who here?

The connection between compassion and egolessness goes both ways. When we let go of the self, we are more inspired to work with others; and when we are generous to others, we realize that the self is lost.

We begin to lose our ego fixation. So when we are generous to that, we begin to lose this; and when we have lost this, we become more capable of dealing with that. At that point, the shedding of ego is a mutual situation.

From The Profound Treasury of the Ocean of Dharma. Volume Two: The Bodhisattva Path of Wisdom and Compassion, page 14.

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Paradigm Shift

Bender of Futurama

Do you ever feel that technology is preparing us for an extremely huge paradigm shift?  Show a smart phone to someone from 100 years ago and they would think that you are performing black magic.  It feels like we are being prepared for some sort of mental leap.  How much are we willing to accept?  I just more and more see some merging of man and machine.  Kurzweil predicts it and it really doesn’t feel that far off.  A singularity.  A literal physical connection between man and machine.  A physical and electrical connection to everyone that is part of the grid.  And maybe it will even become organic.  It will touch every particle in the universe.  Maybe it has already happened and we are just remembering it now?  Sort of like Bender getting an upgrade.

Bender: Woof. If that stuff wasn’t real, how can I be sure anything is real? Is it not possible – nay, probable – that my whole life is just a product of my or someone else’s imagination?

Technician: No. Get out. NEXT!

Compassion

A lot of times I expect people to respond a certain way to something that I have told them.  I feel a little unnerved when they respond in a completely different manner.  I am expecting interest and questions and I get a shake of the head.  I am expecting them to understand something that they could never completely understand because their perspective is different than mine.  They do not have all of the information that I have.  Either through neglect of me telling them, their previous life experiences, or even just their memory or perception of events.  Everything is completely different than mine.  How can I possibly expect their reaction to be the same as mine?

Yet, we are all here sharing this one experience.  We are separate at a physical level, but we are united at a spiritual level.  How can those levels reside in complete ignorance of each other?  Or maybe there is information shared, but it is given in small doses so that we do not notice it.  A gradual change and merging.  It all starts from within.

You can’t expect to end the world of suffering at a wish.  It starts with you.  Give yourself the loving-kindness that you deserve.  Really feel it in your heart and let it expand out to your whole body.  To your family.  To friends.  To people you might possibly hate or hold a grudge towards.  To people you meet in passing.  To people you don’t know.  To the whole world.  To the whole of existence that you cannot even possibly begin to imagine.

Slowly and gradually we begin to become one with everyone that we meet.  We treat them with the respect that we want ourselves.  We empathize with their situation since we can relate to it.  They are not suffering… we are.  The sooner we let go of that desire to see them in a different situation, the sooner that we will ourselves be free from suffering.  They only suffer because we think they suffer.  We only suffer because we project our suffering on other people.  It can end.

Rocks

 

Drop the mask of thought of yourself and thought of others.

Drop the blinding veil that is actually your own thought.

Embrace what is in front of you and accept it for what it is,

Nothing more the universe and it is all the same godstuff.

Everything good and bad is made of the same particles,

it is our thought that assigns an outside notion of judgment.

How can a rock be anything other than a rock?

Seen by one it is beauty.

Seen by another it is a weapon.

Open your eyes, it is just a rock.

Throw it.

Eat it.Bonsai Rock Lake Tahoe IV

It doesn’t matter.

It will still exist as a rock,

Until it is something else.

Memory

Observe the state of your mind from one moment to the next
It is all there
You just have to remember it
You have been here before

Over the Edge

On the edge II

It happened

It is done

There is no going back in this physicality to correct it

All action begins and ends within you

Can physicalities be changed without death of one, the other, or both?

How often does this happen?

Can we be aware of the transition?

What determines the markers for a particular physicality?

Can enough of those markers be seen and understood to determine if the physical reality has changed?

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Inner Engineering Day 3

042113064454I woke up at 3:30 this morning with a feeling that I wasn’t where I was supposed to be.   Overall, I had a feeling that I needed to be at home.  I needed to be with my family.  Home is where you feel love, and I did not feel that the Inner Engineering path would lead home for me or at least it wasn’t the path that I felt that I should take to get there.  Sadhguru said that he could only offer and not shove his enlightenment down our throats.  I decided that as much as I wanted to see and experience the remainder of the class that I am not as open as I could be and that I would ultimately reject anything offered. Maybe at some level I fear that if I follow Sadhguru, I won’t follow myself.

Please note that this is my opinion and I do not want to deter or encourage anyone from Isha, Inner Engineering, or Sadhguru.  I can only relate what is best for me on my journey.  Since I did not see the class to its conclusion, there will still be a question mark and I actually think that is best for those that read this and choose to pursue the teaching.  I would rather write to you now and tell you my experience with the question mark at the end as opposed to something swayed one way or the other.  If you want to read on then please do, but do it with the understanding of what I have just said.

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