Leaving the Shore

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Lately I feel that conversations that I have with others are really conversations I am having with myself.  I think back and the memory is blurry.  Did they say that or did I think it?  Were they talking about this or was I thinking about it?  The paradox is that I often don’t feel comfortable talking to other people.  I feel more comfortable with myself.  It is hard for me to relate to others sometimes.  So, if I am not comfortable with others, am I really comfortable with my self?

This blog allows the outlet of things that I feel, but I don’t feel sharing with people in person.  This white page with black lines that appear when I press buttons on a keyboard.  I know that other people will read this, but it is a detached reading.  I don’t really know anyone that might read this in my personal life.  There may be one or two that have stumbled upon this, but I am not sure.

I don’t feel that I am any closer to a full understanding than I was when I started this blog.  I look out at the great expanse of the ocean.  The other side seems close, but it has felt close for a while.  My folly seems to be that the other side will get closer, the tide will go down, or I will walk along it far enough to a spot where I can jump over the water to the new land.  But it goes on like this forever.  Maybe it was never wider or closer at any point.  Maybe it has always been the same distance and my perception brings the other side closer or pushes it further away.

I need to reset.  I need to build a bridge, a boat, or just jump in and swim.  I need to stop walking parallel to the shore.  It gets me nowhere.  The illusion of progress.  I know what I need to do, but I don’t know how.  Or I do, but I have been denying it and putting it off.  I know I need to let go.  Of everything.  I need to trust in something beyond myself.  I need to expand my circle beyond myself and my family.

My family and I were coming back from vacation and we were dropping off our car at the rental place and catching a cab to the airport.  We were reliant upon the cab driver being at the place when we said or we would be late for our plane.  I was worrying and rushing while driving.  My wife said “It is out of your hands.  There is nothing you can do, but drive and be where you need to be.”  I find this a lot with travelling.  There are so many things that are out of my control, but it doesn’t stop me from worrying about them.  The flight being on time, the car rental place having my reservation, traffic… The list goes on.  I can set things in motion, and I can react to what is in front of me.  But really none of it is in my control.


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buddha what we think

Over the last couple of years I have become fascinated with the idea that everything in your life is a result of what goes on in your mind.

If there are two twins that are the exact same in every way, except that one is relentlessly positive and the other is endlessly negative, their lives would be completely different.

They could encounter the exact same scenarios and obstacles but they would perceive them in different ways. The positive person would see them as a chance to grow, and the negative person would see them as evidence that you can never succeed.

With this in mind I am convinced that learning to skew your mind towards the positive and the useful is the best way to completely transform your life.

Here are the three steps to learning to control your mind like a Jedi.

1) Observe your thoughts.

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Thankful – Abundance – Coyotes

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I feel that I spend so much time looking at where I want to be that I don’t take the time to be thankful for where I am.  I have a loving wife that puts her family first.  2 smart, vibrant, creative children.  Parents, siblings, in-laws, extended families.  Readers and supporters like you.  A career (not a job) where I am paid well and challenged.  A nice house, car, stuff…Freedom.  Independence. Safety. Security. Love. Prosperity. Abundance.

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Right Effort

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I think that people see me a certain way.  A view I have of myself that is limited and not worthy.  I think that they think of me this way, when it is really myself that thinks this way.  I am the one thinking those thoughts.  Not them.  My projections coming out and then being reflected back at me.  They are there, but they are really there to give my thoughts perspective.

Everyone I meet gives my thoughts perspective based on what I think they think.

The truth is that I am actually awesome at what I do.  I have a different way of doing things sometimes, but I do it!!  I accomplish results slower or sometimes less that what I really want, but that is related to the effort that I put into it.  If I apply right effort, things align.

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Grow a Greater You (Law of Attraction) – Part 2

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This is a post in a continuing series on applying the law of attraction using principles from quantum physics.  You should probably start here, but whatever floats your boat.  :)

Chicago, It’s My Kind of Town

I arrived in Chicago on Friday morning.  I had never been there before so I wanted to see the sights, and hopefully catch up with Greg after his meeting with Laura Berman.  I landed and then took the blue line metro/L/train/whatever from O’Hare to downtown.  I switched to the Orange line to get off at the Field museum.  I decided to pack light and just carry my bag around with me and check it at the museum.  I like riding the metro over the bus.  I guess it feels more predictable to me.  Google maps is also pretty nice now for transit travel.  It shows you all of the stops up to the stop that you need to get off at.  However, it doesn’t update automatically like when driving a car.


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Grow a Greater You (Law of Attraction) – Part 1

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Law of Attraction

As part of researching pictures and links for my last post, I ran across a YouTube audio of Greg Kuhn reading part 5 of his book Why Quantum Physicists Create More Abundance.  The audio was about using the law of attraction and quantum physics.  I had watched The Secret on Netflix a couple of times and I am pretty interested in manifesting more abundance.  As I said in the original post, I would like to be in a position where I can take care of my family, friends, and give back to the world.  The Secret talked about these things being possible and creating a vision board to see your success, but it never really clicked with me.  It felt more like positive thinking to bring you what you want, and I never really believed that.

Greg explains the law of attraction with principles from quantum physics.  I had never really tied the two concepts together before, but it just made sense.  Everything exists in the quantum field as potential.  The quantum field delivers exactly what we expect, which may not be in alignment with what we desire.  This is the rub.  How do we get our expectations/beliefs to align with our desires?  How do we change our beliefs?

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I am Grateful

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Inspired by this post by Lorane Gordan, I want to stop and really list out what I am grateful for.

It’s not so much the expression you make 5% of the time that combusts into a manifestation. It’s the expression you make 95% of the time that is creative. – See more at: http://yourhappinessway.com/gratitude-fuels-the-law-of-attraction/#sthash.vuDJrP8w.dpuf

Where our mind is at the 95% of the time is what we attract into our lives.  What an amazing insight!  I can spend time when I meditate or am alone to think about the things that I want and where I want to be.  But that makes me lose focus on where I am and the gratitude that I should show.  At one time or another, I thought about what I wanted.  The reality that I am living in now is pretty much based on that thought.  My discomfort with the moment is where I am vs. where I think I should be.

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I have been looking externally for a vision on what I should do at work.  I have been waiting for something to just take away the responsibility and just tell me what I should do.  I spoke with my manager today about how I don’t have a clear vision of my career path.  He told me that instead of waiting or depending on others for a vision, I should create one for my department and grow it from the inside out.  I had never really looked at it that way.  I have been looking externally for direction, when the only place that I can really look is internally.

How can I find work that will give me joy?

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Work with the World

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I spend a lot of my time thinking about how I could change things if only the world were different.  If there were different conditions or if people behaved different than they do now.  The powers running countries and religions and whatever should do this so that I can do that.

But it doesn’t work like that does it?  Trying to change an external force or blaming it for our lack of action is just ridiculous.  Change comes within us first.  Instead of opposing the external forces, we can learn to work with them.  Yin and yang.  The external does not have to change for the internal to change.  Internal change produces external change, and yet both exist as they are.

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